& even tho...

& even though being away from you is so hard, I can still make a list of the things I love, & unfortunately miss, about you & it continues to grow even though you're 7 hours away. <3

I love how even though I can't claim you as all mine, you act like you are.
I love your witty, smart ass remarks even though half the time they drive me crazy.
I miss your backrubs...=P
I love how your personality comes across in your texts and how I can hear you saying them in my mind.
...Your drug references even though I will never admit to missing and liking them to your face. Ever.
That one thing...(; Haha. I wouldn't be human if I didn't miss that.

The list isn't going to end...It's always in the making.

Stop It.

I don't understand you. I don't understand what happened 2 days ago between us and I wish I did. I wish you would just figure out what you wanted 'cause all you've done is make me confused. However..
If you're still in my head then maybe there's a reason for that. Please. Can we figure it out together this time? <3 If there is a this time. </3

I am...

Hungry.
Annoyed.
Incredibly happy.
Nervous.
Gutless.
Still Hungry.

Watching Godspell with Momo.<3

Bleh.

Yup. That's basically how I feel right now. Although I must say, I'm so glad that I have been able to get out of my hole that I have been living in because of this darn mono.
Never been more excited to go to my 10 AM in my life.

I Made My List

Today,
I couldn't sleep. So I made my list of expectations. Now, it's prayer time for the next 6 months.

It's Time

I realize we're done. It's ok with me.
Because now I can start the power of prayer and find that one person. I've seen it work, so why not, right?

Home Is Where EVERYTHING Is

Home. <3 It feels amazing to be here. I helped shuttle machinery yesterday in that crappy farm pick up; I helped put a combine back together; played with kittens; saw my kiddos; and saw someone who I have missed soooooo much. (=
Mom made the best mashed potatoes EVER for dinner today. Yum. Crock pot meals are the best. I have this massive queen sized bed in my room now too & I love it. Going back to my little bed at HCo does not sound like fun right now.
P.S.--You didn't mess up.